I have mixed feelings about my memories of Lisbet. I feel very blessed to be able to remember her life, and I wouldn't trade those memories for anything in the world.

Looking at things from a positive angle, remembering Lisbet's life has completely changed my outlook on life today. I no longer have any fear of death. Of course I don't want to die, but when the time comes, I know that I'll face it in the knowledge that death isn't the end, but just a transition, the beginning of a new chapter in the book of my soul.

I don't know for sure what lessons I am meant to learn from Lisbet's life. I have a feeling that I've already learnt a few things on a subconscious level, and I feel that there is more that I have yet to learn.

Lately I've been trying to release a tremendous amount of guilt that I carried over from Lisbet's life to my own. Up until now, I've been denying this guilt. Lisbet died feeling that she abandoned her father, and that she could have done more to help him out of the boiling water into which he ran, trying to lead me to safety. She had to make an instant decision, the ash cloud would soon be upon her. Her father was yelling at her to run. Should she stay and try to help? Or should she do as she was told and run. This is where panic took over, she could see the ash cloud rolling down the side of the mountain. In a blind panic, she followed her instincts and ran, with her fathers screams ringing in her ears.

Inevitably, the ash cloud caught up with Lisbet and swept her up in it's path. But I can remember, she died with the guilt of leaving her father there to die, and that is what I need to heal from in my life today.

I also feel that I need to know exactly what happened to Lisbet's mother. I'm not even sure if Lisbet knew whatever happened to her. I once had an experience, it wasn't a memory, but I was Lisbet in this experience, and I met my mother, she embraced me and told me that she was "still here" and that she never "went away". It was a very emotional moment that i never wanted to end.

It's not all good though regarding Lisbet's life. After I had the past-life regression, in some ways I felt like I had opened Pandora's box. There's a part of me that craves to go back to Lisbet's life, to finish her life that came to an untimely end. I don't yet fully understand the mechanics of why we are here, what the purpose is to life apart from the soul gaining experience from each incarnation. Was Lisbet meant to die at the age of 12? Was there some purpose to her life that she never got to fulfill? Is that the reason why I feel an intense need to return and finish her life?

Or maybe I'm just so fond of the memories, that on a subconscious level, I sometimes fantasize about her life, as one might do with one of their acquaintences, wishing that they could live that life instead of their own, it could be nothing more than that?

But the bottom line is, I would rather have the memories than not. I can close my eyes and be transported back to her life whenever I like, so in a way, I am still living her life, she is a part of me, and I am a part of her, we are one soul.

One day it is my ambition to return to Ecuador, to the place of Lisbet's life and death. I feel confident that I could find my way to the exact spot where she died, where she probably still lays to this day. I can imagine it would be one of the most profound experiences of my life and whether any good or bad will come out of it I don't know.

My dream come true would be to meet someone there who remembers Lisbet, highly unlikely I know, but possible. I don't know if I could tell them that I used to be her. I think it would probably be best not to, but you never know what the circumstances are going to be. Anyway, that's just me dreaming out loud.

Somebody once suggested to me that each and every one of us ...is alone. No matter how many family, or friends we have, ultimately, we are all 'alone' with our own conscience, and that is how we face life and death. I can see his point, but I prefer to think we are not alone at all. For me personally, I have Lisbet by my side at all times, as well as all my other incarnations, I am anything but alone. They will accompany me through my present life, be there at my death, and then I will join them for the journey of life along with my next incarnation, whoever I may be.